Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in forever_sin's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, November 23rd, 2004
4:26 pm	Go away... I can't stand people... They always revolve around their own stupid shit. Hell even I do it and it fucking annoys the hell out of me. I'm so sick of my family. I get along with no one. It's fucking retarded... My parents think I do absolutly nothing, and my sister drives me up a wall. Of course no one has seen any of this. My family does a decent job covering up their mistakes... Whatever... Now to my "Friends". You start to wonder what goes through their fucking brains sometimes. Shit happens and they repeat the mistakes over and over again. You would think that they would learn after the third run or so. In the past 5 days I have seen one friend. She hasn't gone and drove me crazy... Yet... I pray I get at least one friend with have the brains to take fucking to heart. Honestly I know 2 people that would visit my grave at this point. Kevin, and Megan. By the way thank you for keeping my sanity... I used the "F" word I don't know how many times in this small entry. I've once been told that vulgar language show's lack of intellegence. Well "FUCK HIM" I honestly don't give a damn about anyone right now... Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Getting away with Murder - Papa Roach (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 21st, 2004
12:27 am	A little tired... What a long day. I spent a good chunk of it working. It's all good though. I'll have my parents paid off by X-mas. Yay me... Hopefully I'll pull off some last minute shopping for my friends. Speaking of which, my best friend finally called me! Now in South Carolina, in the Navy! lol. I miss him so much. Only person who could make me laugh even when I was to the point of throwing my life away. If you ever read this Kevin, Thanks!!!! When he called I was in complete shock, I didn't even recognize him... We rarely ever talked on the phone. But, it's all good. I've been talking to him a lot lately. He's doing well and enjoying life. I'm so happy for him. I wish all my friend were like that, you know. David has been hit hard repeatedly lately. It really sucks. Even I don't think I could take some of that... But, to each person their own I guess. Hopefully things start working out for him... On another note. I've had phoenix on the brain lately. I honestly don't know if I'll move or not. I have a lot of thinking to do on the subject. The easiest path isn't always the best choice. It's tempting but, I love Vegas. Everything I know is here. I don't know if I want to leave it just yet. I found out that Joey may be leading me on... I honestly don't know what to believe at this point, listening to my friends was what made us fall apart the first time... Who knows. I'm just sick of being alone... Whatever... Current Mood: tired Current Music: Sevendust - Broken Down (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 7th, 2004
3:21 pm	Lost... I feel kind of lost right now? I'm torn between my head and my heart. Really bad stituation, I know. But what can you do. Sometimes you just have to have time decide things for you... The BBQ went well last night. Even though it was scheduled for like 4PM it probably started more like 7PM So yeah, we all had fun. I was so bad though, I feel attracted to John, not like it's a bad thing or anything. In my opinion anyway. Both David and Kirk think it would be a bad idea, who knows people change all the time. With a new focus on life you never really know what could happen. I'm not going to rush into anything like that, but it was really nice to talk to someone who had somethings in common with me. I stayed the night at David's house last night. Definately something I wont forget. It had to be the first time where when I left I actually felt content instead of miserable. I still have feeling for him and know that they aren't going to just go away. I can deal with that though. I mean I'm just now getting over Kevin (Sort of). But, yeah, I think that just talking to David last night helped me clear my head. I just hope that he realizes that no matter when or where, I'll at least try and do my best to be there and support him in anyway I can. Current Mood: drained Current Music: Angel of Mine - Monica (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 2nd, 2004
2:34 pm	Time to Kill. I have some time to kill before I go to work... *Yawns* Life sure does seem dull. I've been trying to keep myself active, but it's kind of stretching thin. I honestly don't know how much more I can take. Lets face it, I'm bound to go insane. No way I'll be pre-occupied for the rest of my life. Guess I might as well accept it. Oh Well... *Yawns and passes out in chair* Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: Whatever is playing on my X-box right now. (Comment on this)